So here I am, consuming two, margerined hot cross buns.
*hangs head in shame*
I think if I fix my sleeping patterns to not be awake passed, say, midnight at least, I won't have stupid cravings of food that I just refuse to say no to. I'm going to try to work on that this week!
Have also discovered that not having sugar for a long time and then having two lemonades, a piece of cake and two ice creams in one day is a hell of a sugar overload causing not just a headache, but severe lack of sleep.
SO WIRED.
Sugar is bad.
Not sleeping is bad.
The End.
-MM
Sunday, 19 February 2012
Saturday, 18 February 2012
Bad diet, bad!
Woow this week has been awful, diet wise.
I should have been doing this day by day, but lets see if I can remember...
Monday I think I had pasta for dinner as my cheat meal and a mars bar. Tuesday being valentines day, I had pizza (romantic, yes?), soft drink (diet, but still..) and god knows what else. Wednesday I ended up in Newtown and caved to the Italian bowl which meant yes, pasta again. Thursday I had.. Burritos! Not so terrible, although I could've done without the carbs and ate a bit too much. I also made a cake for my partner, in which some of the mix mysteriously ended up in my belly. >.>
Friday morning I had bacon and eggs for breakfast (although I am cutting down on the amount I have - just one egg on toast rather than two for two) and something else fairly horrid for dinner I can't recall. Saturday I had bacon and eggs brunch again and stupidly had a dinner that was another wrap meal, but the chicken was really oily and gross so I had to paper towel the crap out of it. And I had three hot cross buns.
*hangs head in shame*
My water intake has also been abysmal with maybe only 2-3 days having my full two litres. I definitely haven't lost any weight and may have even set myself back 1-2kg.
My weight loss has drastically slowed since being off of the Duromine, which sucks. It's making being on the shakes almost unnecessary. Going to really try to muster up the motivation to go to the gym this week and even try to take my pup for a walk this afternoon, just to get me moving.
Wish me luck!
-MM
I should have been doing this day by day, but lets see if I can remember...
Monday I think I had pasta for dinner as my cheat meal and a mars bar. Tuesday being valentines day, I had pizza (romantic, yes?), soft drink (diet, but still..) and god knows what else. Wednesday I ended up in Newtown and caved to the Italian bowl which meant yes, pasta again. Thursday I had.. Burritos! Not so terrible, although I could've done without the carbs and ate a bit too much. I also made a cake for my partner, in which some of the mix mysteriously ended up in my belly. >.>
Friday morning I had bacon and eggs for breakfast (although I am cutting down on the amount I have - just one egg on toast rather than two for two) and something else fairly horrid for dinner I can't recall. Saturday I had bacon and eggs brunch again and stupidly had a dinner that was another wrap meal, but the chicken was really oily and gross so I had to paper towel the crap out of it. And I had three hot cross buns.
*hangs head in shame*
My water intake has also been abysmal with maybe only 2-3 days having my full two litres. I definitely haven't lost any weight and may have even set myself back 1-2kg.
My weight loss has drastically slowed since being off of the Duromine, which sucks. It's making being on the shakes almost unnecessary. Going to really try to muster up the motivation to go to the gym this week and even try to take my pup for a walk this afternoon, just to get me moving.
Wish me luck!
-MM
Monday, 13 February 2012
Off the Duromine
My water intake has dropped, dammit.
I'm guessing this is because I'm now off the Duromine until after the competition (I still want to lose weight, need it out of my system well before the comp!) and so I don't have as much of a cotton mouth, therefore making me constantly thirsty.
I had almost forgotten what a struggle it is to try to keep up my water intake on my own. I've had only just over a litre for the passed few days now, so that is definitely something I need to work on.
I have also forgotten how tired I usually am. Even on the Duromine I would stop and think "I'm quite tired" but it's nothing compared to what I am feeling now. I have had to cancel things and stay home just because I am far too tired to walk out the door. I am due for a B12 shot very soon, but even they don't seem to pick me up much.
Can definitely see why people want to be on amphetamines all the time.
-MM
I'm guessing this is because I'm now off the Duromine until after the competition (I still want to lose weight, need it out of my system well before the comp!) and so I don't have as much of a cotton mouth, therefore making me constantly thirsty.
I had almost forgotten what a struggle it is to try to keep up my water intake on my own. I've had only just over a litre for the passed few days now, so that is definitely something I need to work on.
I have also forgotten how tired I usually am. Even on the Duromine I would stop and think "I'm quite tired" but it's nothing compared to what I am feeling now. I have had to cancel things and stay home just because I am far too tired to walk out the door. I am due for a B12 shot very soon, but even they don't seem to pick me up much.
Can definitely see why people want to be on amphetamines all the time.
-MM
Wednesday, 8 February 2012
The Multivitamins!
I have been a little quiet over the last few days, but I've been running an experiment. As you may recall, I was having some issues with the doubled up hormones creating some undesirable side effects. It seems that it was not the doubled up hormones but in fact the multivitamins I had started taking again!
Whether my body's reaction to them has changed or just the clash with the hormones or Duromine, it seems that the Swisse Women's Multivitamins were giving me the mood swings, aggression and added giddiness.
Today's lesson is short and sweet.
Just because something is off the shelf at your chemist or even supermarket, does not mean it won't have bad effects on your body, especially if you are on any kind of medication. An interesting lesson I also learned whilst taking sleeping tablets and St John's Wort (the lesson there is don't do it, ever). Just because something is herbal or natural, doesn't mean it can't be dangerous.
-MM
Whether my body's reaction to them has changed or just the clash with the hormones or Duromine, it seems that the Swisse Women's Multivitamins were giving me the mood swings, aggression and added giddiness.
Today's lesson is short and sweet.
Just because something is off the shelf at your chemist or even supermarket, does not mean it won't have bad effects on your body, especially if you are on any kind of medication. An interesting lesson I also learned whilst taking sleeping tablets and St John's Wort (the lesson there is don't do it, ever). Just because something is herbal or natural, doesn't mean it can't be dangerous.
-MM
Sunday, 5 February 2012
Saturday, 4 February 2012
Hormones - Feeling Double
Hey everyone!
For four days now I have been on "the pill" on top of my Implanon in an attempt to halt the irregular bleeding I was getting as a result of (potentially) Duromine. The good news is that it seems to have worked!
The bad news is that after four days, I'm starting to really feel the effects of doubling up on my hormones (œstrogen and Progesterone) despite being told I "probably" wouldn't have any side effects. But hey, hormones are tricky things that affect different bodies in different ways.
I only really noticed today that I am feeling quite nauseated and am getting some headaches, despite my large water intake. I'm also not just irritable, but feeling quite abnormally aggressive and almost impulsive (which is always a great mix). I'm feeling a bit disconnected from a lot of people and feeling very oddly paranoid about irrational things I know are silly.
I am hoping that this just lasts for a day or so, perhaps as part of an adjustment period. I'm going to carefully monitor my emotions and weight throughout the week (I was also told it was "unlikely" I'd put on weight but with my body, who knows) and make a judgement as to whether to continue or not. There is no other real solution to stop irregular bleeding, so I might have to put up with it until the competition is over.
Am hoping it doesn't come to that.
-MM
For four days now I have been on "the pill" on top of my Implanon in an attempt to halt the irregular bleeding I was getting as a result of (potentially) Duromine. The good news is that it seems to have worked!
The bad news is that after four days, I'm starting to really feel the effects of doubling up on my hormones (œstrogen and Progesterone) despite being told I "probably" wouldn't have any side effects. But hey, hormones are tricky things that affect different bodies in different ways.
I only really noticed today that I am feeling quite nauseated and am getting some headaches, despite my large water intake. I'm also not just irritable, but feeling quite abnormally aggressive and almost impulsive (which is always a great mix). I'm feeling a bit disconnected from a lot of people and feeling very oddly paranoid about irrational things I know are silly.
I am hoping that this just lasts for a day or so, perhaps as part of an adjustment period. I'm going to carefully monitor my emotions and weight throughout the week (I was also told it was "unlikely" I'd put on weight but with my body, who knows) and make a judgement as to whether to continue or not. There is no other real solution to stop irregular bleeding, so I might have to put up with it until the competition is over.
Am hoping it doesn't come to that.
-MM
Wednesday, 1 February 2012
What quick fixes can do to you (Duromine)
I know I seem to go on a lot about quick fixes, but this is what the majority of people are trying to use to lose weight, be it fad diets, amphetamine based pills, "carb blocker" pills (yeah, sure), laxatives or a plethora of detoxes that kill fat for good!
As I've said several times, this just won't work in the long term. What you might not realise is that a lot of these things can also cause some damage to your body, both short term and long term. Some are more obvious than others, not eating causes, well, death (as well as building up your fat stores anyway - it's the muscle that you lose), purging has a similar effect as well with the bonus of teeth erosion from stomach acid and laxatives cause malnutrition from lack of absorption, fishers (tears/cuts in the anal passage) and potentially bowel problems in the future. Some detoxes can do this also as well as take away a lot of your good bacterias.
What about ones you don't know?
I'm going to cover a few more of these quick fixes that you might not know about, but first I'd like to share a very recent experience with you all. As a warning for the guys out there, I am about to talk about periods! So if you're one of those dudes that can't hear about "that girl thing", I suggest you skim passed the next paragraph. I'll signal you or something when it's safe.
So for those that don't know, I am on Implanon, a contraceptive that is a rod inserted into the arm protecting you from pregnancy for three years (or as I like to call it, god's greatest gift to women since vibrators). As a quick overview, Implanon works by artificially producing and regulating hormones and stopping ovulation. As a result, some people can get either irregular bleeding or their periods can just stop altogether for some amount of time. As for me, I am quite lucky and my periods stopped altogether.
With my first Implanon, I would only bleed every eight months or so, my second I hadn't bled at all for two years, until two weeks ago. I was extremely surprised to find that I had gotten my period out of the blue, although that's how it tends to happen with Implanon. I had no pain which was odd, that usually accompanies them, given the large build up over time (sorry for getting a little graphic). So that annoyingly lasted for four or five days. At first I attributed it to just a build up, but then found that it was odd that the discrepancies of time (period on my first Implanon vs the time took on my second Implanon). Irregular bleeding on Implanon typically tends happen the first few months or the last few months before it has to get taken out. Given that I'm just about dead on two years, it definitely didn't fit into either of those categories. I then started to ponder if it was the Duromine causing this to happen.
As you may or may not know, high levels of stress on the body can lead to irregular bleeding, be it mental stress or physical stress from lots of exercise. Given that Duromine works by putting the body into a bit of a flight phase in order to pump up your metabolism and other functions to burn fat, resulting in higher blood pressure, dizziness, alertness to name a few. Not ruling out the potential of a regular old build up, I just waited it out.
Exactly one week after the period had finished, it started again! I decided that this was definitely not good news. Googling didn't really give me much (and it's not the best place to go for medical advice, let's face it) so I made an appointment with the doctor the following day.
I went to the sexual health clinic because I just don't trust general practitioners with anything sexual health related as the majority of them are well out of date with their information (a little fact I learned whilst studying sexual health myself). The doctor I saw checked a few resources and Duromine is not a listed drug that effects Implanon or vice versa. After discussing a few potential causes, we agreed that what could be "unofficially" (as in, not medically recorded anywhere from studies) happening in my body is that my liver is into overdrive and metabolising my hormones from Implanon. Bad bad news. Ovulation wise I'm still protected, but by metabolising the hormones, it is creating me to have a period when I shouldn't need to. I needed to control this as I had a big competition coming up and didn't want to be worrying about such things getting in and out of costumes (not to mention also the fact that it is kind of destroying my body). So for the short term, I am on the regular "irregular bleeding" treatment of additionally taking the pill to try to control it. Obviously this also isn't something you should do in the long term as it's doubling up on hormones (which I'm praying doesn't cause more problems), but it will hopefully allow me to regain control.
Alternatively, the other obvious answer would be to get the hell off the Duromine (which I am a little surprised wasn't mentioned to me), however I still have a bit more fat to try to lose. Stupidest response ever, I know.
Long story short, Duromine can cause your body to go into so much overdrive it actually causes your body to do a variety of stress related responses, including unnecessary periods.
(Welcome back boys!)
There are obviously many other risks and harmful things Duromine can do to your body, but this was just my most recent experience. I have also had to get up quickly out of bed in a bit of a panic (pup was trying to throw up and had to try to get her out of my room, running to the door to sign for a parcel) which has caused me dizziness to the point where I have to immediately lie down afterwards because I'm about to blackout.
Other listed medical issues are rise in blood pressure, body temperature, anxiety, aggression and of course, the good old risk of cardiac infarction, especially with long term use, better known as a heart attack.
This is why eating well and exercising is crucial to taking Duromine in order to try to keep your blood pressure down, not build it up further. Exercise needs to be light so you don't pass out like I nearly do when I just get out of bed.
I was going to cover a few more "what quick fixes can do to you" but I'll have to make that another entry, this has been long enough!
Stay tuned!
-MM
As I've said several times, this just won't work in the long term. What you might not realise is that a lot of these things can also cause some damage to your body, both short term and long term. Some are more obvious than others, not eating causes, well, death (as well as building up your fat stores anyway - it's the muscle that you lose), purging has a similar effect as well with the bonus of teeth erosion from stomach acid and laxatives cause malnutrition from lack of absorption, fishers (tears/cuts in the anal passage) and potentially bowel problems in the future. Some detoxes can do this also as well as take away a lot of your good bacterias.
What about ones you don't know?
I'm going to cover a few more of these quick fixes that you might not know about, but first I'd like to share a very recent experience with you all. As a warning for the guys out there, I am about to talk about periods! So if you're one of those dudes that can't hear about "that girl thing", I suggest you skim passed the next paragraph. I'll signal you or something when it's safe.
So for those that don't know, I am on Implanon, a contraceptive that is a rod inserted into the arm protecting you from pregnancy for three years (or as I like to call it, god's greatest gift to women since vibrators). As a quick overview, Implanon works by artificially producing and regulating hormones and stopping ovulation. As a result, some people can get either irregular bleeding or their periods can just stop altogether for some amount of time. As for me, I am quite lucky and my periods stopped altogether.
With my first Implanon, I would only bleed every eight months or so, my second I hadn't bled at all for two years, until two weeks ago. I was extremely surprised to find that I had gotten my period out of the blue, although that's how it tends to happen with Implanon. I had no pain which was odd, that usually accompanies them, given the large build up over time (sorry for getting a little graphic). So that annoyingly lasted for four or five days. At first I attributed it to just a build up, but then found that it was odd that the discrepancies of time (period on my first Implanon vs the time took on my second Implanon). Irregular bleeding on Implanon typically tends happen the first few months or the last few months before it has to get taken out. Given that I'm just about dead on two years, it definitely didn't fit into either of those categories. I then started to ponder if it was the Duromine causing this to happen.
As you may or may not know, high levels of stress on the body can lead to irregular bleeding, be it mental stress or physical stress from lots of exercise. Given that Duromine works by putting the body into a bit of a flight phase in order to pump up your metabolism and other functions to burn fat, resulting in higher blood pressure, dizziness, alertness to name a few. Not ruling out the potential of a regular old build up, I just waited it out.
Exactly one week after the period had finished, it started again! I decided that this was definitely not good news. Googling didn't really give me much (and it's not the best place to go for medical advice, let's face it) so I made an appointment with the doctor the following day.
I went to the sexual health clinic because I just don't trust general practitioners with anything sexual health related as the majority of them are well out of date with their information (a little fact I learned whilst studying sexual health myself). The doctor I saw checked a few resources and Duromine is not a listed drug that effects Implanon or vice versa. After discussing a few potential causes, we agreed that what could be "unofficially" (as in, not medically recorded anywhere from studies) happening in my body is that my liver is into overdrive and metabolising my hormones from Implanon. Bad bad news. Ovulation wise I'm still protected, but by metabolising the hormones, it is creating me to have a period when I shouldn't need to. I needed to control this as I had a big competition coming up and didn't want to be worrying about such things getting in and out of costumes (not to mention also the fact that it is kind of destroying my body). So for the short term, I am on the regular "irregular bleeding" treatment of additionally taking the pill to try to control it. Obviously this also isn't something you should do in the long term as it's doubling up on hormones (which I'm praying doesn't cause more problems), but it will hopefully allow me to regain control.
Alternatively, the other obvious answer would be to get the hell off the Duromine (which I am a little surprised wasn't mentioned to me), however I still have a bit more fat to try to lose. Stupidest response ever, I know.
Long story short, Duromine can cause your body to go into so much overdrive it actually causes your body to do a variety of stress related responses, including unnecessary periods.
(Welcome back boys!)
There are obviously many other risks and harmful things Duromine can do to your body, but this was just my most recent experience. I have also had to get up quickly out of bed in a bit of a panic (pup was trying to throw up and had to try to get her out of my room, running to the door to sign for a parcel) which has caused me dizziness to the point where I have to immediately lie down afterwards because I'm about to blackout.
Other listed medical issues are rise in blood pressure, body temperature, anxiety, aggression and of course, the good old risk of cardiac infarction, especially with long term use, better known as a heart attack.
This is why eating well and exercising is crucial to taking Duromine in order to try to keep your blood pressure down, not build it up further. Exercise needs to be light so you don't pass out like I nearly do when I just get out of bed.
I was going to cover a few more "what quick fixes can do to you" but I'll have to make that another entry, this has been long enough!
Stay tuned!
-MM